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I might not have met all my goals this month but I did REALLY well for my first go! Next month if I do as well I will be a happy girl!

I am ending this month drinking NO soda and eating NO meat! I would have never thought I could make those changes before. Not only make them but be completely happy with them.

Another goal of mine was to be in a smaller pants size and although I haven’t gone out ot buy a new pair I definitely could at this point. My jeans are really lose and I’m hoping to be in another size smaller by the end of April.

A goal I haven’t met is excersizing. I am hoping if I keep up with my diet and lose some more weight eventually it will get easier to excersize. Right now my back still causes me so much pain it’s pretty much impossible to do much of anything. I could push a little harder but since I have a 3 month old baby to carry around and a family to care for I just opt not to.

Ohhhh and I swore to cut out the sweets… which I also have done realllly well with! Not even a bit of cake during all this party stuff for my 6 year old. It’s such a bad habbit tho I have to make sure to catch myself and remind myself pretty constantly.

If I up it a little more and keep moving forward I bet I can make next month even better!

On my promise of no sweets. So far I haven’t had any except for some banana bread we made last night. And I feel that is OK because I made it myself. Making it yourself cuts the calories in half didn’t you know? OK maybe it doesn’t but it should. Where do I file a suggestion to make a change about that?

Even through all the goodie bag makingand cake baking I’ve done for the party I have been strong! This is also day 5 no meat, no soda. Good for me! I need longer arms so I can pat myself on the back just a little more. Anyway.. tomorrow is weigh in day and I hope this week has made a difference. I know I could have made a few better choices on things but I was a little lax since I was trying so hard to stick to the goals I made as far as no soda, no meat and to cut down on the sweets.

I’ll report back in the morning.

I really don’t feel like there has been much of a change in my weight this week. I know I still have a couple days to weigh in but I was hoping that after these 2 weeks of not losing much that I would be due for a good week.

Not that it would have any baring on how I would feel about sticking to it. But man… I really want to end this month with a bigger bang.

To report about today. I did well. Day 3 no meat no soda and it was just fine! I took cupcakes to my daughter’s class for her birthday and I didn’t eat a single one or pick at any of the candy. That is my newest goal. To stop all the little sweet treats I’ve been saying I’m not eating but doing enough snitching and picking to really add up.

I’ve been drinking LOTS of water too. I feel myself getting more and more used to this as a lifestyle. Tonight my daughter wanted a happymeal for her birthday dinner. Last month I would have had to battle against the urge to get some fast food for myself but honestly I had no desire for that at all tonight! I was a little hungry so I had a little healthy meal and I was perfectly happy with that.

Feels so good to fill up after a small but adequate dinner and not care about the junky food around me. It’s definitely getting easier.

I am surprised that it’s been this easy. I think it was mainly because I have been harder on myself this month so basically allowing myself to have lots of fruits and veggies feels like I am getting more than I’m missing.

I think the hard part for me right now is the little sweets. I really have been making excuses to have little bits here and there that are adding up to big calories. I am commiting today not to have anymore for the rest of the month NO MATTER what. This includes the birthday party on Saturday. I think this is the one and only thing holding me back right now.

Also I have wanted to start using the food journal on here and now that I have a specific diet to stick to I think it will be even more important. I’m looking foward to getting that going as well. Starting tomorrow!

I’ve been going back and forth first feeling like what I’m doing isn’t good enough but then realizing even if I haven’t dropped big numbers these last 2 weeks I really have stuck coninued to push through and make good decisions. I’ve never done this well for so long. So really I should keep being proud, I know that if I keep it up it will start showing again pretty soon.

I’ve tried to keep this blog pretty upbeat and focused but I am REALLY having a day here. Not with my eating but with my back.

I have always had back pain but ever since my first pregnancy it has gotten BAD. And pregnancy #2, well that just about doubled my problems.

Excersizing is SO HARD because after 5 minutes of anything my back starts to seize up and I feel like it’s unbareble to keep moving. Today I took the girls on a walk and as soon as I was strapping the baby carrier on I could feel it was NOT a good day for my back. I decided to push through it and just go. I got probably a 1/4 of a mile before I could not take another single step. I had to sit and try to ease the pain so I could make it back home. I wanted to cry, I couldn’t even make it out of our neighborhood.

I just feel so defeated in this area. I know it would make such a huge difference if I could get real excersize in instead of taking everything easy in fear my back will hurt for the rest of the day. Or feeling like a load of laundry or emptying the dish washer is going to ruin any other plans I had for the day.

How am I supposed to get passed this? I know my strengths and weaknesses and I think this is definately something I can’t do on my own.

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I just wanted to add I am genuinely looking for help or answers. I’ve been to a Dr about it, they did X-rays of my back only to tell me it looked perfectly fine and gave me an ibuprofen prescription and sent me home with no answers or way to get answers.  

Honestly I really haven’t had a rough moment all day. I realize that mentally perparing myself is so important. Yesterday I just decided it was the way it was going to be and I set up plans to have a big jug of water with me at all times and knew I was going to have tiny meals through out the day so I wouldn’t get hungery and I wouldn’t over eat.

It’s going great so far. Really the last 3 weeks I haven’t eaten very much meat at all so it’s not that hard to just stop altogether. And as long as I am chugging my water I haven’t even thoguht about soda. I’m sure that will change and the next few days it will gradually get worse and have it’s moments but it’s always nice when you get off to a great start.

I need to go to the store and get some more fruits and veggies, I really like eating a peice of fruit or a bowl of veggies every hour or two. I think the fact that I have been eating so much healthier lately helped me get over that cold quicker!

I really feel bad that numbers haven’t dropped more the last 2 weeks. So I think I am taking the no soda plunge starting today. Well… starting right after this one I’m drinking. WHAT? It was the last one in the fridge I couldn’t just throw it out. That’s wasteful, and we’re in a recession people. I’m not enjoying it though, I promise.

Oh and also I’m staring my vegitarian diet tomorrow! I’m excited. I’m going to do mostly a simple raw diet during the week. Lots of fresh fruits and veggies. And then maybe some interesting dishes and meals on the weekend. It’s a nice time of year to do it, plenty of yummy fresh produce in the stores right now.  I should probably step up my excercize a little this week too, as the end of the month is fast aproaching. So I think I’ll make an end of the week goal to be down 5lbs!

 So that’s about it, no more soda… (after this one, 5 sips left I swear), tomorrow I’m starting my vegitarian diet, more excersize and my ambitious goal is to be down 5lbs by the end of the week. Wheeee!

That’s how I feel today! And it was how I felt yesterday as well. I am SICK! And I just want to go back to bed and curl up in a little diseased ball and sleep and cough use up tissues all day long. But noooooo, I just had to have kids didn’t I? I just couldn’t get that house plant like my mom suggested. Darn them and their adorable little faces.

Ugh I have to much to do today to be wasting it anyway. If it weren’t for the little punks I would just go back to bed but I guess I am going to be forced in to getting stuff done anyway. 

Ick I can’t even blog right now, I feel like doodie.

I felt pretty guilty about those rice krispie treats yesterday LOL. The good news is I didn’t eat any more and did lots of walking and running around at the park today. That’s a lot for me considering I’m still not so good with the excersize and the whole moving about type of stuff. We had fun at our little picnic and my friend brought a bunch of yummy fruit including blackberries. Mmmmm I was in heaven. Love me some blackberries.

So I was inspired to go to the store and look for some more. When I got to our local Smith’s they were having a big produce sale. Yippeee! So I loaded up on strawberries, bananas, pears, cauliflower, peppers, potatoes, avacados, tomatoes etc. It really made me feel like I COULD do this vegitarian thing. Im actually getting kind of excited! Maybe I’ll start my month early hehe.

I changed my profile pic today, I took that picture and couldn’t believe that my face is really starting to change. I love it when there is noticable differences. Nothing more motivating then seeing your double chin start to go! Speaking of double chins I am including this picture of my rolly polly yummy tummy smoochie boochie little babypie who is now 3 months old!! Why? Cuz she’s cute!